Fearing or Loving Allah?

 

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Sr. Ruqaiyyah Waris Maqsood

When I was a teacher, I used to get quite upset when I worked out the unintended but deleterious effect some teachers had on their students. I used to hear over and over again – ‘If you don’t do this you’ll never get on’; or, ‘if you don’t work and study hard you’ll never pass your exams, and then you’ll end up unemployed, and then you won’t be able to afford nice things or have a good time’. And so on, and on. It was all a ploy, of course, to try to make school-children work harder and do better. The intentions were good.

 

But somehow, the results of this constant nagging were not wonderful improvements in the standards of the students. Not only did the words never seem to have any positive effect on anyone, but on the contrary, youngsters who knew they only had rather modest talents (if any!) soon got fed up, some stopped trying altogether, and many ended up struggling with depression. Instead of being quite proud of the things they had done right, and the targets they had succeeded in, and the things they had achieved, they felt that the grown-ups were never satisfied and the whole sorry business just went on and on, making them want only to get out of school and pack it in as soon as possible.

 

Maybe they would never get jobs, but would spend years and years being unemployed. Maybe they would never own homes of their own, but would live in rented rooms and rotten places.

 

Ouch! This gave me a bad feeling – because all the teachers really wanted to do was to make their students do their absolute best, and get as much out of their education as they possibly could. They wanted to encourage them, not finish them off!

 

Which brings me to the subject of Paradise. I have heard so many people tell others that if they do not do this or that, or try harder, or give up something they are doing or like, they will never get into Paradise. All they will get is punishment, and the place we call Hell.

 

What is Paradise anyway? Some people also call it Heaven. It is the place of eternal life that Allah has promised to all who believe in Him, and who do their best to live good lives here on earth.

 

We Muslims do not think that we are just born to wander willy-nilly through our lives for no reason or purpose, until we eventually drop down dead, and that is the end of it. We believe that we are all born for a purpose, even if we do not know straight away what it is – or even if we never work it out, or find it out. Allah knows what the purpose is for us, even if we don’t. But He is not trying to catch us out – things will happen to us in our lives as we go along according to His will for us, whether we like it or not.

 

We believe that when things happen to us they are tests of our character. Suppose something  horrible happens, like we get some terrible disease, or suffer a wound that cannot be fixed up in no time? Suppose we receive a huge amount of money, or suddenly our families go bankrupt? Suppose we have turned out to be really ugly, or people make fun of us for some reason? Suppose we are extremely brainy, so much so that other kids think we are snobs and swots and we get embarrassed? Suppose our parents get divorced and we suddenly lose Mum or Dad, or perhaps have to live with a different ‘Mum’ or ‘Dad’ we may not care much for?

 

All these things are real trials to us – some nice and some nasty. The point is, everyone will have some of these trials – and if we are learning to be good Muslims we will also try to have our wits about us so that we can react to them in good ways.

 

If something bad happens, we could get depressed, angry, hostile, bitter, cruel, selfish. But we do not have to. We could be patient, gentle, thinking about others, trying to help out, and so on. If something good happens, we could be very selfish, or get conceited, or feel superior – but we do not have to. We might rather be pleased, and happy to share, and grateful for our good fortune. Do you see what I mean?

 

Sometimes well-meaning people tell us that we must always ‘Fear Allah’, because if we do not, we will be punished and horrible fates will await us. Whatever we do in life, we are ordered to remember Allah’s anger and follow all sorts of rules, in case we fail our tests and He gets angry with us, and we are not able to wipe out our terrible record of failure.

 

In my opinion, the words ‘Fear Allah’ are really wrong, except in a very few special circumstances. What is meant most of the time is rather  to ‘have reverence’ for Allah, to think about Him with great love and respect, and awe and humility.

 

Well, suppose we do commit sins and do things wrong? Isn’t Allah going to punish us, then? What about His justice, His laws, His rules. Surely they all matter, especially if we are trying to please Him?

 

Yes, they do matter – but what matters much more is Allah’s love for us, His understanding, His wisdom and His compassion. Of course He knows that none of us are perfect – He should know, after all, for He created us in the first place. He knows our characters, the things we are likely to do, our likes and dislikes, our abilities to stand up to temptations. He knows all our background influences, and things that might have affected us and altered the way we behave.

 

Allah does not judge us like a human being might judge us – if He did that, then probably nobody would escape some sort of punishment. No, Allah knows all the facts in a way that we can never do, and still loves us dearly. If we realise that we have done something wrong and are sorry about it, He ALWAYS forgives us. The moment we say sorry, He has already forgiven us. The bad thing is gone off our record. There will be no horrible punishment to come sometime in the future, even if have forgotten all about it.

 

The Prophet (pbuh) once pointed out a mother hen to his friends – she was clucking around looking after her chicks. She represented a good loving and caring mother. Didn’t we know, the Prophet (pbuh) asked, that Allah cares for us much much more than a hen cares for her chicks?  Even if our mothers get cross with us, and fed up with our moods and tantrums, and ashamed of our bad habits, and petrified of us doing wrong – don’t they still love us, no matter what we have done? Yes, they do. They really do. Even if, at the end of the day, we really fall out with and separate from our mothers – we can never be separated from the love of Allah, no  matter what we do. He may well hate the sin that we do, but He never hates us.

 

Our angels keep two books of records about us – the good and the bad. The things in our good book never disappear but are recorded for ever, even if nobody saw us doing them. We will forget all about them, but they stay recorded for ever, and one day we will see that record and realise how we were going along the right path in our lives. We will also be shown our bad books, but even if we remember only too well some of the wrong things we did, to our surprise they may not be there in our records at all. This is because they just disappear and exist no more the moment we are sorry and try to do something to put things right.

 

I like to think of our good books as a kind of savings bank, into which we can put day by day all our good deeds and thoughts, and things we do to help others, or to stop ourselves from doing something we would be ashamed of people knowing about. You might see an old lady drop a five-pound note. Here’s a temptation – what do you do? Keep it, or give it back? Nobody saw it – oh, but wait a moment, Allah saw it. If you do the right thing, there goes another entry in your good book.

 

But suppose you kept it? What then? The entry goes into your bad book, and you have committed a sin. Do you know what happens next? Your angels keep popping thoughts into your mind that make you feel guilty and ashamed. It might be making you think how you would feel if someone else found out what you had done – and I don’t mean a pal who you know steals things and would not care less. You might suddenly realise that the old lady could now not  buy any food or pay for her electrics, or something, and you would feel bad. How could you put it right, especially if you had no idea how to find the lady and pay it back?

 

Well, you could hand it in to the police station, giving your name and address so that if she never went to ask about it, it could be returned to you. Or you could keep an eye out for the lady – she probably uses the same street regularly, and give it back later. You could certainly tell yourself and promise Allah that you will never fall for that particular temptation again. You could then do some good deed to someone else that would act as what we call a ‘covering action’. Get the idea?

 

We all know people who would simply laugh at an honest person giving back that £5. The world is full of them, many of our friends would be like that. But if we want to be on the straight path, then we must not think like them but turn our hearts as much as we can towards pleasing Allah. He may forgive us, but He will not be very delighted if we steal and cheat and do not care about old ladies and their money. He will know if we are dishonest, and not sorry for it.

 

So, we need to have a positive strategy for putting al-Fatihah into practice. Do you remember the words? ‘All Praise to Allah, Lord of all the worlds, the Compassionate, the Most Kind, master of the Day of Judgement. You alone do we worship and to You alone do we turn for help. Show us the next step along the straight path, the path of those who are earning your pleasure and not that of those who are going astray.’ (Surah 1).

 

By asking Him to show us the next step, we are asking for help to see what is the right thing to do in every fresh situation that we come across, one test and temptation or challenge after another. There will not be a blinding flash of light from the sky to tell us, but our angels will be working on our consciences, making us feel uncomfortable if we are doing the wrong thing, and increasing in confidence and freedom if we are doing right. You know it makes sense!

 

Every little thing we do right, Allah is so pleased. We do not have to beg Him to forgive us, or reward us – it is His nature to do so, His promise to us. To all who believe in Him, and who do good deeds – on them shall be no fear or sorrow, and they will most surely have their reward in the life to come, even if it seems as if there is no reward forthcoming down here on earth. He knows we are not perfect and not geniuses – all we have to do is TRY.

 

God bless, wasalaam, Ruqaiyyah.

 

(With acknowledgements to Reflect, the magazine of the Muslim Educational Trust).